.October 22, 2005 ' 22:39 Y
hey yall. why is blogspot in cheenese?? weird.
sorry i didnt continue about the outing. yea i forgot to blog about the dustbin digging thingie. sorry rox! i had to dig into the dustbin to find her sister's reciept cuz her hand was too short xD you owe me BIG time gurl.
haii.. now the sec 4s have graduated and friday wasnt really a good day for me. we didnt get to check lit paper i dont know why cuz i wasnt paying attention. my head was killing me. cried my eyes out and i didnt want to tell anyone why i was crying. noone knows the whole story. the other two cried too. emotional uh.. sec 4s graduating. i'm screwed up. the feeling of jumping out of the window and slashing my wrist is into me again. but i cant jump out if the window.. i live on the second floor for goodness sake! i wont die and the pain is not enough. so why jump right? i will most probably break my leg and create more trouble for people. and i cant slash my wrist again. i'll break my promise. and i dont break promises. i sit on my window latch and think that i shouldnt be in this world. its a mistake that i'm still alive. i'm not needed anymore. i miss everyone. i miss my friends. i dont know why i'm in this situation. its not pms. its not results. my results are just fine. i think. i'm just not feeling myself this few days. i cant make it on my own. oh god please help me. i'm young and i'm hopeless. so please take me away. my head's been killing me. i dont know what to blog about anymore. my days have been dark for the pass few days. i'm seriously in shit mode right now. i need my pillar to hug. i need my shoulder to cry on. i dont know what to say anymore. i'm off. probably to jump off a building or suffocate myself. nola. its a sin to kill myself.i shall end it here. i love all of you people. ALOT.
and to the graduated seniors:thanks for being there when i needed you the most. thanks for all the times we had. without you guys, my life would be at a lost with no right path to go. thank you!! love yall from bits to pieces.
oh my love please dont cry. i wash my bloody hands and you can start a new life. hold on if you feel like letting go. hold on it gets better than you know. dont stop looking youre one step closer dont stop searching its not over. do you know what youre doing to me? shes there. this time i'll admit that i miss you. dont hurt me anymore. just mourn the death of me. if you want me to wait, i will wait for you. if you tell me to stay, i will stay right through. if you dont want to say anything at all. i'm happy wondering. i dont know much at all i dont know wrong from right. all i know is that i love you tonight. so long and goodnight. </3
SITY KAY!